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Monday, June 5th, 2006
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6:21 pm - No Elle?
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My doctor just told me the most horrible news. Unless I have a baby in the near future (with the aid of drugs and machines), I will never be able to have children. How cruel is that?
Thousands of women in the world have abortions or give up their children. Ted and I have been wanting a baby for so long and now we find out that there's a slim chance that I will ever get pregnant.
We have to make a decision soon. He has to make a decision.
I feel uncertain of my future now. I feel so lost.
current mood:  sad
current music: I am the Highway - Audioslave
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| Thursday, June 1st, 2006
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8:03 pm
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My brother shared his deepest darkest secret to me today. It frightened me.
He and I are the only ones who know. I cannot tell anyone else, not even Ted whom I trust the most.
The thing is, among the three of us, I always thought that he was the only one who didn't have dark secrets. It changed everyithing for me.
I hate secrets. I hate being the one people tell them to. I wish I had never known.
current mood:  Helpless
current music: Like a Stone - Audioslave
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| Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
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2:20 pm - Why?!
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Sometimes, when things are perfect, I become irrationally scared that something might go wrong.
current mood:  anxious
current music: Lie Low - Plumb
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| Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
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3:12 pm
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This is kinda kewl. Try it.Ü
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack.
How are you feeling today?
Wish You Were Here - Incubus
Will you get far in life?
Running Away - Hoobastank
How do your friends see you?
Stellar - Incubus
Will you get married?
Sunday Morning - Maroon 5 (Hahahaha!)
What is your best friend's theme song?
High and Dry - Radiohead
What is the story of your life?
A Certain Shade of Green - Incubus
What was high school like?
You and Me - Lifehouse
How can you get ahead in life?
The Scientist - Coldplay
What is the best thing anout your friends?
Circles - Incubus
What is today gonna be like?
Hard to Handle - Black Crowes
What is in store for this weekend?
Yeah Whatever - Splender
What song describes you?
In Your Eyes - Peter Gabriel
To describe your grandparents?
Beautiful Disaster - 311
How is your life going?
Beautiful Disaster (I just found out that I had downloaded double.)
What song will they play at your funeral?
Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down
How does the world see you?
Lightning Crashes
Will you have a happy life?
Once in a while - Dishwalla
What do your friends really think of you?
Shimmer - Fuel
Do people secretly lust after you?
Cold - Crossfade
How can I make myself Happy?
Like a Stone - Audioslave (Hehehehe.)
What should you do with your life?
Take a Picture - Filter
Will you ever have children?
You Wanted More - Tonic
current mood:  Nalingaw
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| Saturday, May 13th, 2006
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10:09 pm
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I just finished downloading a ton of songs into my baby...my Sony Ericcson W800i. I adore it.
As I was browsing for songs, I found some that brought me back to 6th grade -- WILSON PHILLIPS! Hahahaha. When I was 12, I had their cassette tape. The old band is now officially my number one SECRET PLEASURE (but ofcourse now my LJ friends know).
I also downloaded some songs from Fuel, Audioslave, 311, The Black Crows, Coldplay, and lotsa girly stuff. I even found this 80's song from Divynils called "I Touch Myself". It's kewl. Other interesting stuff that I downloaded were Peter Gabriel's "In Your Eyes" -- the acoustic version -- and Marcy Playground's "Sex and Candy". I'm very happy.
It's a lovely, lovely phone. : )
current mood:  Yey! Yey! Yey!
current music: Fuel - Shimmer
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| Sunday, May 7th, 2006
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3:58 pm - Dinner's on me!Ü
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I am cooking dinner for the whole family tonight. In my grandmother's efforts to transform me into wife material, she assigned the task of preparing Sunday dinners to me. I started last Sunday with sinigang na baboy. It was pretty good.Ü Lola Darge was so proud. I could almost see tears in her eyes when I let her taste the soup. Hehehe. Her exact words were, "Lami kaayo!"
Tonight, it'll be Japanese--pork terriyaki with bean sprouts and my favorite... maguro sashimi. Hehehe. I wanna start with relatively easy dishes and then maybe experiment with more challenging ones when I'm ready. At least I don't have to cook the sashimi. Hehehe. Teddie's gonna be my assistant so I'm pretty confident that it'll be perfect. He's an excellent cook.Ü
Well, wish me luck!!!Ü
current mood: creative
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| Monday, May 1st, 2006
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10:58 pm - Catch Phrase
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Trainee 1 (trying to describe "Snow White"): "Cartoon character, very fair skin..."
Trainee 2: (shouts) "Pocahontas!!!"
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Me: "It's the nickname of the volkswagen..."
Trainee: (screams) "Turtle!!!"
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Hahahaha. I had so much fun in class tonight. It's just great to be back in training. After all the stress that I went through as Comm Coach Sup. it feels like a walk in the park.
Mispronunciations? Grammatical errors? Red flag? Bring it on!!!Ü
current mood:  What did you say??!!!!!
current music: stupid DJ on Monster Radio (no other station available)
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10:44 pm - My favorite beach pic.Ü
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Me, a book, and the beach.Ü Love it!
Minutes after this pic was taken, my cousin invited me to take a plunge
so I left my book on the lounge chair, stripped to my bikini, and we ran to the
water together.Ü It was a beautiful day.
current mood:  Happy!
current music: Been It - The Cardigans
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| Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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3:29 pm - My Long Weekend
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Spent the Holy Week in Bantayan.
All my money got stuck in the ATM last Wednesday. Some technical problems with I-Bank. (I swear, it is the most inconvenient bank.) I was so bummed out. Couldn't buy the super gorgeous bikini I had been drooling over for days. Good thing I went to Bantayan with my family.
I found out that while the rest of the Philippines is fasting and abstaining from worldly pleasures during Good Friday, the Bantayanons actually eat Lechon! I heard from my uncle that this is the only island that was excused by the Vatican because Holy Week is their fiesta season. It was strange. There was pork everywhere!
The beach was super nice! White sand and crystal clear water. The weather was perfect. I'm now 3 shades darker than I used to be.
Hope I'll be able to upload pics soon!Ü
I saw my ex again today. Bati gyud siya'g nawng. Don't know why I ever went crazy over him. Ambot.
current mood:  Wheeee!
current music: Crazy -Gnarls Barkley
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| Sunday, April 9th, 2006
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3:13 pm - My Ambigram
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Check this out!
It says adrienne, and when you invert it, it's exactly the same.Ü
It's so Angels and Demons! Hehe.
current mood: La lang...
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2:32 pm
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Audrey Hepburn...
Once dubbed "The Most Beautiful Woman in the World". She invented her own style, which is still emulated by women in the present day. Everybody loved her. She had a kind heart and a great spirit. She was brilliant (spoke like 5 different languages fluently).
I just read her life story ("Audrey Style") and it struck me when I found out that she had 2 bad marriages. Her second marriage ended because her husband wanted to spend his nights in other women's arms. She actually stopped acting for a while so she could be a full time wife to this bloke.
And that made me think... if women like Audrey, Nicole Kidman, Jennifer Aniston and Jackie Onassis can be left by their husbands for other women, what hope is there for regular women like us?
It's scary... Right now, I can say that Ted is faithful and devoted coz so far he has been. But will he remain loyal to me forever? Is there really such a thing as a "faithful husband"?
I know a lot of marriages that have lasted because the wife simply chose to be blind to her husband's unfaithfulness. Are all women doomed to endure this kind of life eventually?
Personally, I think men who cheat are pussies.
current mood:  Yikes!
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| Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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3:14 pm
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I can't wait to play tennis.
Can't wait to play tennis.
Can't wait to play tennis.
Can't wait to play tennis!!!! :(
Come Wednesday, I'm gonna buy me a Prince O3 White, just like Sharapova's.
current mood: anxious
current music: typing and clicking...
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| Monday, April 3rd, 2006
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8:12 pm - My Weekend
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I had tennis lessons again yesterday. This time it was with a new instructor. I hit 400 balls! (Ow! Hehehe.) Getting pretty damn good at it. At this rate, I’ll be pro by the age of 50. Hehe.
I started moving back to our house in Busay (in the hills) last Saturday. I'm kinda sad about leaving my apartment. I spent 5 good months there. It was the first very first place I could call my own. Sob! Sob!
However, being back at home with lola and dad is not so bad. I'm actually happy to be able to see them more. And it's great to have people to cook for me, and do my laundry, and clean my room. Ha! Didn't have these luxuries in my apartment. It was always instant noodles and canned goods. I had to make my bed, clean the bathroom and wash my underwear all by myself. Well, it was a good learning experience (I learned that Mr. Muscle is great for taking mold and mildew off bathtubs and tiles.), but I’m so elated to have household help again.
My family is excited about the wedding. Ted came over to the house this weekend to talk to dad and lola. He said he was never calmer in his whole life. Everything’s set. The only thing we have to worry about now is him passing the board exams.
I think it’s part of God’s plan that I’m home. He wants me to be with my family before I move out for good.Ü
current mood: happy
current music: "The Way You Look Tonight" playing over and over in my brain
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| Saturday, April 1st, 2006
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6:23 am
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I had dinner with my best friends last night.
It was weird seeing them after what seemed like decades. We used to be inseparable. We took baths together, shared our deepest secrets to each other, had regular sleepovers, fought for each other and cried together.
We've been friends since high school. "The Wacals". (Don't ask how we came up with the name.) We were so idealistic back then. Our only problem was what to wear to the mall on Saturdays. Back then, we were all sure that the five of us would end up as brilliant career women with super gorgeous husbands and beautiful children.
If we only knew... We were all talking about our heartaches and successes last night. One thing is for sure... we never imagined that our lives would turn out the way they did.
Our youngest is a single mother now. She got married to a rich, handsome, half-Japanese-half-British guy who broke, not only her heart, but her spirit as well. She's getting an annullment.
My rocker sister is the only 26-year old virgin I know. She's never had a boyfriend and, believe it or not, she's never been kissed. She takes three different sleeping pills every night just so she can fall asleep. She's unreasonably afraid of getting a broken heart.
Pia, the only one who couldn't show up today, is in Manila. She married this wealthy young entrepreneur who had his MBA in Wharton. They had twins - a girl and a boy. At least she's perfectly happy.
Jenny is happily married and I am happily engaged, but Lord knows how many heartaches we had to get over before we got to this point. I never imagined back in high school that I would one day be creeping out of the house at night just so I could go to the hospital to visit a boyfriend who had just shot himself in the head.
It's funny... I used to cry over pimples and broken nails. It's just freaky thinking about how much we've changed.
Well, at least one thing has remained constant... we're still Wacals. : ) We're still here for each other. Sisters to the end.
current mood:  Yayay me.
current music: Trainees doing Can8
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| Sunday, March 26th, 2006
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2:25 pm
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Ted and I celebrated our first anniversary this weekend.
I gave him a "The Matrix"-inspired watch. He loved it.
He took me to dinner at Kiosha, a delightful little authentic Japanese restaurant in Punta Engaño (past Shang and Hilton). It was wonderful! I couldn't have thought of a better way to celebrate our first year. The food was great. The ambience and service were superb!
As usual, we sat in our favorite spot--at the bar--so we could see the food being prepared and make friends with the chef. We pigged out and he spent a fortune! Hehe.
I had told him that I didn't want us to celebrate in a fancy place. I told him we might as well save the money for our wedding. Well he practically brought me there blindfolded! It was a perfect night.Ü So romantic...
Afterwards we played poker with friends, then went home to our little love shack. The funny thing is, we didn't even make love. We cuddled and talked and watched TV till we fell asleep. I'll never forget that night. It makes me smile just thinking about it.Ü I think we've moved into a different phase in our relationship. Yes, the kilig is still there. The difference is, right now, I think we can both say that we are each other's best friend and confidante. No more facades. We know each other inside out and we're inseparable.
His gift? Secret...Ü
*I now have 2 favorite Japanese restaurants: Ofuku San (Country Mall) and Kiosha. For me, if it ain't owned by a Japanese, it ain't authentic.
current mood:  Mmmm... Maguro sashimi!
current music: 3 Doors Down - Kryptonite (Love this song!)
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| Saturday, March 18th, 2006
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3:32 pm - Goin' Down Unda!
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Ted and I are seriously contemplating on living in Australia after our wedding. He wants to have his residency, and maybe his subspecialty too, in Melbourne. I've been doing some research on migration and the requirements and about the city too. I'm really getting excited about it!
Wouldn't it be nice if we had Elle there?Ü It would be sooooo cool! We'll finally have a life of our own. I hope it pushes through, though. Ofcourse, he'll still have his private practice here in Cebu.
One of the best things about Melbourne is that it's where the Australian Open is held each year.Ü Hehehe. Will I finally get to see Sharapova, Federrer, and Roddick live, in action???!!!!Ü
By the way, we have come up with a tentative date for the wedding -- September 4, 2006. We're planning to have it in our house in Busay. The ceremony will be in the garden. The reception will be in the house, with candles and lilies, etc. I think it'll be the best venue. It will be a simple and solemn event. My dress will be a strapless Jun Jun Escario.Ü Orange, my cat, will be my ring bearer. Hehehe. Someone will have to be a cat bearer then.Ü
current mood:  ???
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| Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
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6:17 pm
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I'm sitting in front of this computer and I want to burst into tears.
I feel so angry...
If I were a fire starter, this whole f*@"#ing building would be blazing by now.
I hate my job. I hate the fact that I haven't had sleep for about 36 hours. I hate it that I've been spending too much time doing so many things that I'm not even supposed to be doing and other people just sit around and do nothing. I hate it that I spent Valentine's folding paper booklets, responding to emails, making pit stop flags, giving instructions to someone who never intended to follow them anyway, shopping for office supplies, and getting crap from a woman who doesn't have respect for other people or consideration for the sacrifices that people have been making just so she can get her stupid race going.
I've had enough. I'm throwing in the towel.
current mood:  aggravated
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| Saturday, January 28th, 2006
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2:26 pm - Sob, Sob! Sniffle, Sniffle!
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Douine,
I am going to miss you soooooo much! I felt so sad yesterday when Louise told me that you're leaving the country on Mnday already.
You have been a truly wonderful, super cool, genuine friend. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tatsu_kun is so lucky to have you! Wish you guys all the best in love and in life. Don't you ever forget your gorgeous trainer, k? : )
Mwah!
current mood: sad
current music: "I'm in Love with a Stripper"
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| Saturday, January 21st, 2006
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11:54 am
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This was taken during the Sinulog. I call this guy my Dloot (as in boodloot iyang tiyan!). Hehe.
He's my best friend...my hab-hab partner...my number one crush... The love of my life.Ü
current mood:  Howdy!
current music: Ted's cousin, snoring very loudly.
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